Narcissism Aphorisms?

Well I'm kind of running out of time here to post blogs on things, partly because I did applications the entire spring break. So here is something I wrote a long time ago just based on my thoughts about Narcissism in my musings.

~ Narcissism does exist within all people as Freud says, or at least they wish some aspect of themself were “better” in their sense in order to be narcissist. What many people misunderstand about a narcissist though, is what they see in a mirror. They do not see themselves, because in reality extreme narcissists are delusional and see another image they project into the mirror. Of course, this in a figurative sense, because the literal sense they do see themselves.

Side note: all mirrors actually show a reversed image – they are all false images to begin with. This whole thing about mirrors reminds me about the quote “Mirror mirror on the wall, who is the most beautiful of them all? Also, Narcissist see a dream, and want everyone else to see what they see – much like Alice’s trip through the looking glass (The N wants to take you into their mirror world) This reminds me, we must talk about how amazing Disney movies are or perhaps I’ll write a journal entry about them in here.

~ The ironic part is mirrors are in fact empty and hold nothing. If you will, narcissists walk around in their fantasy world with their mirror image of themselves held firmly in their mind. Essentially, it is impossible for narcissists to concentrate on the beauty of the world around them, for they love themselves so much that they ignore others in addition to the fact they constantly try to “prove” the existence and reality of their mirror image to others and hope others see what they see. Interestingly enough, I think that deep down for narcissists who are not mentally ill, that they lack severe self-confidence and overcompensate to make up for it. In a sorts, every rational being cannot delude himself for so long like a narcissist, so my opinion of rational narcissists is that they recognize the falseness of their world yet refuse to acknowledge it and/or reject it.

~ Extreme narcissists are indeed magnificent in themselves, however. They can become magnetic, dynamic, overpowering. In their attempt to trap you in their mirror world, if they succeed you will do what they want, you will act the way they want you to. They want to be your god, your master or mistress. They need you.

~ The Narcissistic Supply – displayed in malignant narcissism is essentially the supply narcissist need to fuel their ego and ideal. The narcissist receives psychological gratification from feelings of power that come from the outside world – you. These come in the form of attention, power -- any positive social cue. Similar to a drug addict, the narcissist needs to feed off other people’s emotions to keep their narcissistic supply or they undergo withdrawal symptoms.

~ The malignant narcissist is inherently weak because they derive their ego functioning ability by constantly feeding off the emotions of other people (to build up their sense of self-worth to higher levels). They proceed to harvest reactions to this projected image of themselves from family, friends, anyone. If the reactions – adulation, admiration, attention, fear, respect – are not forthcoming then the narcissist beings to demand them.

~ Lastly, the narcissist in relationships. If they can find a person to essentially ensnare in their belief of themselves, then the person will fall victim to their whims. If you fall for them, romantically, you feel like you are drowning with no end in sight. Others tell you how wrong your love is, how you are being abused; but you are underwater and it all seems so distant and meaningless. You are captured in the narcissist’s mirror world.

~ I tried to mix in prose to add something more beautiful and interesting to my writing. I hope you enjoyed it and I’m sorry I wrote so extensively on narcissism, I just find the topic so fascinating. Oh well, it's not like anyone reads these anyway.